I almost HIT a car just now :(
I feel pretty bad right now.
I feel useless for wasting 2K ( 20hours - 1K just for the stupid tutor) for my driving last time and i know i'm really suck at driving.
I barely drive around ever since i got my license cause that time we don't have extra car at home, dad use one car, mummy use one car, my sisters use their own car and conclusion, i just don't have car to use during the day when everyone go to work and I never drive around at night or alone.
Now that i have my new job, i had to drive myself to work from now on.
I asked baby to help out with my driving just now, so we went out to drive around.
I thought i only have problem with parking and naik bukit. and because of i stop driving 2 months ago, my driving skill getting worse. seriously teruk.
I feel bad for my boyfriend cause i keep forgetting what he told me about driving.
I'm not gonna ask my mum or my dad to reteach & practice with me,cause they will end up yelling at me.
I'm suck at remembering which lane should i use.
Another problem is, i get panic and stress EASILY.
My baby "lecture" me just now, he told me not to think too much thing when i'm driving cause it will affect my driving. Baby keep saying whatever you do, your eyes must on the road. Focus in front of you. I always forget which gear im using when i'm driving and I need to look back at the gear so yeah.. Just now i almost hit a Myvi when i take side. I don't know what's wrong with me..i just can't focus on my driving at all.
I really don't know how to solve this problem right now. Palis -palis i involved in any accident when i'm driving.
But then, practice makes perfect and FOCUS is a MUST.
Dear GOD, please help me to overcome this driving problem.
Oh by the way, I almost QUIT my job last friday, like seriously.
My first day was tiring and too much work to do.
Too much new things for me, i don't even know anything or learn that in my university years before.
Don't ever try to work at Audit Firm if you can't handle it.
But thank god, my colleagues in that department are very helpful, i feel bad cause i asked them too much. They even asked me back if i'm okay or not cause i looked very stress.haha I AM!!
I was attached under this guy, but then, got another colleague will on leave next week for 2 weeks, and nobody is doing her job coz she don't have any assistant.
So she want me to take away her job.. I was like okay ( cause i didn't know she's on leave for two weeks starting next week). Then she taught me a lot of new things, things that i never heard or learn before. She packed me everything with her job, what to do, what documents & forms to prepare, which clients, payment and stuffs. She's alone doing her job, but im sure she can't learn all that in one day. How do you expect me to remember everything in less than 1 day??
I do have a good memory but i need some time and got limit also cause i'm NEW. I don't blame her cause she also stress with her work. But thank god, our bosses solve the problem and divide the job to everyone so its quite fair for me, at least.
I only can conclude my first day was very stressful and tiring. I went to bed early last night. I was really really tired. I forgot when is the last time i feel that way but yes, i was fucking tired.
However with the help from my colleagues, i manage to get it through.
Frankly, I'm not sure how to handle the incoming days, i'm not even sure if i can pass my probation period. haihh. Talked to mummy and my boyfriend about it, they asked me to tahan lor cause it's a working experience. Work is like that and deal with it.
Baby said try not to hate my job cause the more i hate my job, the more i can't do it.
I should listen to someone who work more than me.
Lord please give me strength.